Excuse me while my head explodes

[terrie]

Well, not literally. Probably. The stress of this time of year is getting to me. I always feel like I'm about to start hyperventilating. I have to finish my application for the bar exam (I already missed the standard deadline and am going for the late one). I have finals. I have to study for and take the bar exam. I have to find a job, since my current one ends in less than a month. If I think about it too much, it gets to me. So I spend a lot of time distracting myself, which means I don't get things done, which means I stress about them. This sucks.

It's also resulted in some very vivid and disturbing dreams. I had one where I got in touch with a friend from junior high who I haven't seen since high school. And, in the dream, he died two days after I talked with him, only no one knew to tell me, since we'd been out of touch for so long. So I called his house, and his parents answer to tell me the funeral is the next day. Brrrrrr. That's one of those dreams that sticks with you the next day and leaves you out of sorts. I also dreamed that zombies were after me. I was high up on a shelf, trying to turn the room into a fireball, so I could kill the zombies. It didn't occur to me until I woke that I'd be killed as well.

I'm ready to start the next part of my life.